“Wa violence in Sweden”

That was the message I woke up to this morning.

A reminder: I’m in Singapore, the message was sent from my boss who is a Singaporean.

This made me jump on the computer and look it up on Swedish media, thinking, if it’s in the media at home, then I can get a sense of how big of a deal it is back there. Only because national and international media can be quite different.

To my disappointment, it’s featured pretty big…

BACKTRACKING TIME!

I remember a few days ago, I saw on my Facebook feed from my friends about things I didn’t really pay attention to, which now makes more sense. So I went back and posted a status, asking what’s going on back home.

Then I went back to the media and started reading, back tracking articles etc.

SUMMARY

So the short summary is that 12 May 2013 a civilian man was shot by the police in a suburb of Stockholm.

The man died and the wife, who he was shot in front of is traumatized. I’m not going into details, as I know those articles and reports aren’t very trustworthy, but the general thing is that the police thought there was a threat since the man was holding a knife.

This resulted in protests by the youths in the form of setting cars on fire and it’s spreading to other suburbs of Stockholm.

I love my home country, which is Sweden. I love my hometown, which is Stockholm.

No matter if I’m ethnically from Vietnam and China, lived in Germany, Australia and now Singapore, I’ve always carried a love and pride to be Swedish and can call such a beautiful city like Stockholm my home.

To hear and read about this, hurts. It literally hurts! Why? Because Sweden has to me and what I’ve been exposed to, one of the best values as a country to live in and I’m not alone for thinking that. Check out the major blogs about this and you’ll see.

I get angry, cause it’s about 40 people, causing and doing this violence. Not many at all, but I get angry about the effect they’ve caused.

I hate this action and I don’t support this protest at all. I understand where they claim it comes from: a protest against the police for shooting an innocent man, but I think it’s bullshit. A load of crap.

I don’t think they have a clue about their actions and the consequences. It’s not thought through. Even if in the future it ends up me being wrong and they actually had a great insight. I’ll still stand by this statement. Which should say a lot cause it means that whatever they’re trying to have said, it’s not coming through!!

I don’t believe in violence. Never have and never will.

This group doing this are barely young adults, I doubt they have any profound idea of their mission.

I think this is a bad excuse for them to act out in a horrible way. Cause they’re having issues.

If you want to improve our society and question the police, make someone responsible to make sure this don’t happen again. To speak up about this tragedy. I support you, but just the fact that there are cars burning at this multiple places and no comments from their side just says that they have nothing to say! You got the attention, so now use REAL actions and words to make things better. Don’t run away and go and damage and cause more violence somewhere else!!

NONSENSE!

The  affirmation of that I think that it’s completely ridiculous and that confirmed my outlook on this is that at some places, there were people throwing rocks on the professionals putting out the fire!

NOW WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING?!?!?!

IDIOCY!

It’s like they have issues and they’re using any reason/excuse to vent it.

One wrong don’t make another wrong right.

By the way, if you by any chance wanted to protest and turn on the police and what not, trying to force them to take the responsibility of what happened. Then you’re on the completely wrong track. Cause instead of pointing out and reflecting over the mistakes the police made and going from there, you are now taking that focus away from them and targeting something completely different; these car burning events instead. Way to go! (not really)

I get SO angry and frustrated!

I praise Sweden a lot for being a great place to live in, but certainly it’s not perfect. Nothing is, but why I still stick to my beliefs is because it has a good foundation to improve.

It’s a place where you don’t need violence to make a point! You can talk, write or whatever that is non-violent to HELP make it an even better place to live in. If all you can do is to cause more damage once one has been done, then you don’t value or care about the country or city. You’re just an immature, incapable confused idiot trying to express something that you need to figure out what it is cause it has nothing to do with this event.

STOP making up and find excuses for your violence or ill behavior and pretend you’re doing something noble.

It sickens me..!

OK, need to take a chill pill for now…this is so upsetting!

BFC Video!

OK, so finally, I managed to get the video.

I apologize in advance for all my screaming and yelling..I’m either too excited or freaked out haha!

This video captured us from our first day in Sentosa all the way to our last day in Bintan.

This video is unlisted on youtube so it’s only available here on my blog. No need to spread the craziness right?
Keeping it personal and it mostly for my family and friends to see what I’ve been up to ;)

Enjoy!

Haha, everytime I see it, I’ll be smiling from ear to ear and burst into laughter like a crazy person.
Loved the entire experience.
I’ll be carrying it with me for a long time, reminding me of everything I realized about myself and others, but all the things I learned as well.

More pictures from the BFC

So sorry, but been quite busy to blog…

Let’s continue with the rest of the BFC pictures and experiences =)

The first day, afternoon we did The Rafting Challenge!

Including several challenges, quite fun..

Rafting ToH Claudia

Taking on the Tower of Hanoi (learning point, try to think one step ahead. Adaptable to real life? Oh I think so..)

I had by this time realized I’ve gotten 7 mosquito bites..(it’s horrible for someone like me since I’m EXTREMELY allergic. Everyone thinks: “yeah yeah, how bad can it be?” until they see it with their own eyes, it’s bad, very bad..but when I got home that evening, I discovered a few more, adding up to 10 mosquito bites..

So the next day, I went to Sentosa in thick pants, and long sleeve..SO hot! I looked ridiculous, but I rather steam than getting more bites, plus, it looked so disgusting..;)

We spent the first half of the day doing the DISC profiling, nice and calm..until the afternoon and we went out for the High Elements..

If you remember, I posted about climbing up the 10m pole and jumping off of it?

Well..tadaaa!

Trapeze Claudia

Think this is right before I let go of the trapeze..

What a rush..I was horrified! So scared! I’ve never done something like this. The pole was shaking, it was high and the pole so small..

I really thought about giving up cause I couldn’t lift my leg to stand on the pole..but with the encouragements from the team and realizing that this is an amazing experience instead of seeing it as an obstacle, I insisted to at least to fail while trying than to give up.

But seriously, I was worried I’d vomit and it would like splash on to my team mates on the ground haha..eeew!

We had dinner after this and we were then on our way to Bintan..

We arrived there late so we just settled in and went to sleep..think that was the most uncomfortable living standard I’ve been in. Even when I went camping when I was young, it was still cozy and comfortable.

Normally I’m quite sensitive, I’d say. But this time..it didn’t bother me too much. I just didn’t want to get more mosquito bites, so I slept in my sleeping bag, and placed anti-mosquito patches on it hahaha.

The next morning, we woke up to go for a group morning jog at 07.30! Ah!

Was OK, but still..I hate running! After a humungous breakfast, we only had time to re-apply mosquito repellant and sunblock before getting onto the bus which took us to our biggest challenge..

After the 10m high pole, I thought I was OK with heights..Oh, I was fooled..

Facing a 25m high pyramid, we were divided into 3 teams to in a spiral, take on the challenges along the way, each the top and take a flying fox down..150m long…

So, on with the safety gear..

Then time for safety practice round for the safety wires (yes, we were wiring each other)

TPC Furious Five 1

TPC C 1

Belaying (is that how it’s spelled?) my team mate up to the pyramid.

After being briefed of the safety and me asking if there ever been any casualties or severe accidents, we got each other up on the pyramid. Starting on a height of appr. 6-7m..As it’s not as high and I wouldn’t be alone (like on the pole), I got a shock when I realized how scared I got when I got up. The first challenge was to walk across a wire.

TPC Furious Five C1 1

Hahaha, priceless, you can see how scared to tears I am! 

First of all, it was scary cause it’s not a challenge which you quickly can execute. Once up there, we had to stand on the wire, waiting for the rest of the team to get up, secure their wires etc. THEN we could start moving. To endure the fear for that long while standing and a wiggly wire..not so fun..my legs were shaking and cramping. Plus, the wire which we can hold on to was moving too..and I was too short to be able to use it to “rest”. I felt like a cuttlefish hung to be sun-dried! hahaha

TPC Furious Five C1 3

When we reached the end of this challenge, we have to change wires from this challenge to the next one..which added on to the pressure and stress.

TPC Furious Five C2 1See the pole on the right side with the tiny platform? That’s where we change our wires (Changing wires on each other adds on to the element of teamwork and intensifies the experience)..the challenges after this didn’t have any platforms though haha

So challenge number 2 is yet again walking on the taut wire with thick ropes we can hang on to.

Honestly, I wanted to give up here..it was really scary and hard..and it was only the 2nd challenge, how would I be able to get to the top? But for some reason, I continued.

After this, we had some rest in a cage. Third challenge was the one I was scared of from hearing about it at briefing. We had to get across the log without holding on to anything but our team mates. At this time, we’re appr. 8-9 m up high..

TPC Furious Five C3 1

I still remember that we had to stand on the log waiting for the entire team to get on their wire before we could move. I was so scared I’d wobble and fall. Then my team mate held on to me and said: “Claudia, you’re fine. Think you’re standing on the ground and on the ground, you wouldn’t suddenly wobble and fall right?” hahaha, actually it has happened to me before haha but I appreciate his effort to calm me.) I remember how I was super focused on to be calm and just move. Until the cameraman told us to stop, look at him and smile for this photo..haha…I was furious! haha

TPC Furious Five C4 2

Then we changed wire for the next challenge..wires again, but one for each foot and without holding on to anything but team mates..oh my..I guess you can see how high we are now..

TPC Furious Five C4 1

Requiring us to agree on how to move to keep the wires as still as possible, so we decided to move one person at a time, calling out each movement. Took longer time, but helped a lot in stability!

TCP Furious Five C4 1

Changed wires again. Now to cross this swaying bridge with a gap..not fun! Each movement made the bridge sway like crazy, especially during weight transfer when each team member crossed the gap.

TCP Furious Five C4 2We’re all across!! =)

Happy to reach the second resting cage. As this is about teambuilding but also about leadership, we were told that someone else had to lead for the next challenge and it has to be someone who hasn’t lead before. So I was up..

TCP Furious Five Cage 3

This is the resting cage. (Like I told the facilitator, normally, this is my normal level of being adventurous. Just being in a cage like that at that height. So I was already proud of my accomplishments so far!)

Anyway, this is how it looks like when we change wires. Since they’re in clusters for each challenge, they can only reach back so far. So here I am changing from the cage wire to the next challenge wire. I mean, doing challenges is one thing, but whilst resting and changing wires, we’re still in a not very “comfortable” and “unscary”  situation!

Very high up now..

Next challenge was to get across a climbing wall x 3, and yes, changing wires whilst being on the wall!

TCP Claudia rockwall

I had heard scary things about this challenge, so I was very worried. Funny enough, this wasn’t as scary as the other challenges. Maybe because I could hold on to something and face a wall instead of looking out, seeing how high up we are.

TCP Claudia rockwall 2The challenging part was that we weren’t really aiming to climb up, but sideways, making it a bit difficult with feet and hand placement whilst being synchronized with the rest of the team. As we have to wait for the team members, in each challenge, the teamleader has to go the stretch twice to fetch the safety wires from previous team for our own team to use. So yeah, I went back and forth in this challenge, then to wait for my team. This was my only resting position I could come up with at the time haha!

After three sides of climbing walls, we reached the third and last resting cage. The next challenge was a repeated of the parallel wires.

Then to change wires to do “The Leap of Faith”…

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The team before us. You can see the top of the wall in the middle, but here you basically have to leap across to the other platform. For short legged people like me, it was a big leap haha…(I can laugh now, but at that moment, I was crying and trying to keep my vomit down…)

Once we got to the other side, we changed wires again to climb up the last bit..

TCP Furious Five Top 1To finally reach the top!! YAY!!!! (Our team name was Furious Five, which is why we’re doing our martial art poses..I think I’m the snake? haha

From here, all we had left to do was to step over the rail you see behind us…and jump…to take the firefox down…thought it’d be the easiest thing..but really..it was scary hahaha..

TPC group 2

Group photo taken before we started our pyramid challenge..I’m so grateful to everyone, would not have been able to do it by myself! LOVE!

 

Being so high up was scary, feeling I was out of control made it worse.. but with encouragement from others. I was reminded that it’s about the mindset. And that this could just be viewed as seeing things from another perspective and overcoming fears. Through this challenge, I especially saw things in a different light. I’m capable of more than I think. That when I feel so sick to my stomach because I think I can’t handle the situation, I actually can. I just need to have faith in myself. Having a great support group reminded me of that..This is definitely applicable to my daily life!

So go and climb a tower today! ;) hahaha

Happy New Lunar Year!

Today is the first day of the new Lunar Year (The year of the snake).

For me, the Lunar new year is like Christmas, it’s the time I spend with my family and closest friends. So naturally, this is the time I’ll be most homesick.

Lucky enough, I had two major distractions; I’m sick so I looked forward to the long weekend to rest and that since I started my new job, the 29th of Jan, this is my first day off. So most of all, I’m happy to be able to sleep hahaha. Thankfully enough, I still got to enjoy the reunion dinner with a friend and her family, so I was very happy =)

Wish you all a happy new lunar year, may all your wishes come true and happiness throughout every day. Love, health and prosperity to be at top!

Reunion dinner

 

Most blissful thing; to have homecooked dinner (which is what I love the most) here in Singapore when it’s so common to eat out. =)